Well it's not what we expected to see. . . .

Well we went to our first ultrasound apt. today at the OB's office. What we saw was not what we expected to say the least. There was no visible baby present. The doctor looked quite thoroughly and after some time was asking questions like did you have a positive pregnancy test and do you fibroids? We talked and decided to have some blood work done before we panicked but I knew right then that something was wrong. To put a long story short the doctor believes I have what is known as a Molar pregnancy. I must say I very well could be the most unlucky person there is when it comes to pregnancies. Jeff and I were both very shocked and in disbelief because I have been feeling quite pregnant lately and have been sick as well. My Hcg levels came back normal for an 11wk pregnancy and he said there was a mass of sorts in my uterus so that is why the doc believes it is a Molar pregnancy. Sooo nxt wk we are going to schedule another D&C. WOW!!!! Can't believe I have to go through this again. Thank god for my beautiful Jackson. I am to the point now where I think that maybe just maybe Jackson may be an only child. That makes me so sad to say because I would love nothing more than to have at least one more if not two more babes but I don't think I can take many more losses when it comes to my bambino's. I think I took this better than with the first mc but it still hurts and is a loss to us cause we were already picking names and thinking about what we were going to do come December with two babes. This news throws us for a loop for sure. I am sad but just want to get the D&C over with and move on. Hopefully I can deal with better than I did the first time around. It was rough with the first mc and I don't think I can go through all that heartache again. Jeff is so supportive and taking such good care of the three of us. I don't know what I would do with out my guys they are the greatest. The doc reasurred me that this doesn't mean I can't have any more babes. He said that I am healthy and will most likely be able to have as many babies as I would like but it just might be a rougher road to travel than most. He said that if this does turn out to be a Molar pregnancy than it is more likely that I could have subsiquent ones in the future as well. Well I think this has helped me some writting on this blog. Other than this blow we are all doing well and hope you all are as well.